We have been listening to a CD compilation of the songs that have been significant to us on our journey. It is amazing how a song that was so meaningful weeks or even months ago, when Lydia was at a different spot in her recovery, is meaningful again.
In these days of emotional turbulence, and of feeling stretched, we have stopped to listen and sing: "Breathe in. Breathe out. You will find Him here." (Here Kari Jobe)
"Never once did we ever walk alone, never once did you leave us on our own, You are faithful God" (Never Once Matt Redman)
The questions from Laura Story's Blessings, have also brought perspective:
"What if your blessings come through raindrops, what if your healing comes through tears?
what if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?
What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life, is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy?
And what if the trials of this life are your mercies in disguise?"
When we can't see forward, we look back. We see His faithfulness, and we trust Him for what lies ahead. With gratitude, we thank Him for all the healing He has done, and all that He will do. He will lead us through this stage of recovery.
It is beautiful to have Lydia home for the weekend. She is happy to be home. She is sleeping peacefully tonight. The last two nights have been rougher for her, so perhaps it is fatigue that drew her easily to sleep tonight, or the comfort of home, or both. We pray she will sleep well, for when she is tired, she is more emotional and fearful. Even in this, there is hope and peace to be found.