Yesterday was a day of tears for us, as we struggled with the uncertainty of Lydia's recovery. We went from the "highs" of Sunday's smile and laughter, to the "lows" of an unresponsive Lydia, and a medical team meeting where we were informed that if Lydia should not recover to the point that she could be admitted to a Rehab facility, she would be transferred to home, with medical care, and she could remain in an unresponsive state for the rest of her life. While we have known this possibility for weeks, it sunk in yesterday. We could not imagine anyone other than our lively, interactive, fun loving girl back at home with us. Yesterday she sat in a wheel chair for an hour, and it was our first time seeing her like this. It was painfully difficult to see. Somehow, Lydia, lying in a coma is easier to see than sitting upright, propped in a chair and incapable of moving herself or adjusting her position. Add to that the growing grief of missing her. We wept more yesterday than in many days previously.
We recognize that her medical team had to present to us all possible outcomes. We are hopeful that Lydia will continue to heal and will be able to go to Rehab. She is in Mighty Hands.
Yesterday afternoon, she did show some response to commands from her physio therapist and occupational therapist, which is encouraging.
Today, new grief meets us with the news that a dear friend has died, leaving 2 children and a dear husband behind, clinging to the Hope we have in Jesus. We surround them with our prayers too, and ask our Merciful God to be ever present in their lives.
Zeph 3:17 The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.
Today, we are quieting ourselves, withdrawing a bit, to hear Him speak words of love to us, to heal our weary souls, and to nestle into His sweet lullaby. I AM is here.